Have you ever lost your way in this world - Or have you ever found your way? Not knowing where to begin and constantly looking for your true path. Feeling so overwhelmed sometimes to even step forward and not understanding why you feel differently. Your feet are always traveling - moving - running. Always trying to find acceptance and comfort that you crave so passionately.
Putting a smile on your face when inside all you want to do is hide when your around people. Feeling the awkwardness of a spot light watching every move you make. Just looking for a misstep and a moment of being out of control. Drink, smoke, and drugs seem to ease the pain of not being like everyone else and then you slip into a different skin when the drug takes affect.
Struggling with sexuality and scared to share for being cast away from the ones you love. Lashing out because on most occasions your feeling like you have to defend yourself.
Then one day you find a place you can dig your toes into the sand and feel the warm breeze on your skin. Have you found your sanctuary? Your mind is quiet and content for awhile.
Slipping - Your mind is beginning to fracture, as you are trying desperately to stop the destruction of your carefully built walls of protection. Starting to feel the words of torment and the heavy weight of guilt - as it creeps over you like a suffocating fog. You thought this monster was laid to rest but its hungry and whispering words into your ear. Struggling to disengage from these poisonous thoughts you feel yourself slipping back to where you were in the beginning.
Thinking to yourself just once more - this will help give the bump you need to chase away these demons. The voice inside your head has rationalized this out and its okay. Spinning - Regret - Scared.......And then there was nothing.
You cannot see - its dark, lonely and cold. Then you feel the warmth and the intensity from all the people that love you. This love wraps around you like a warm blanket of heat which gives you the strength you need to step forward. Your being is carried now by all the people that love you and there are many lights you can see shining a clear bright path to follow.
